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in my heart bernard gave tim a necklace with a feather on it and jokingly said 'hope is the thing with feathers' instead of a fucking B
#i hate the b im sorry#troy bolton ass behaviour#a feather could be related to drake (means male duck) but also tim being robin and robin literally being a symbol of hope#whatever dc suck my ass forever#timbern#tim drake#bernard dowd#also drake=duck means bernard could lovingly call tim ducky <3
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i posted this to twitter and they liked it so maybe you will too
#isat siffrin#siffrin#isat fanart#in stars and time#siffrin in stars and time#isabeau#isabeau fanart#siffrin fanart#isabeau in stars and time#i hate tagging#OH CHEESE IM SORRY I FOROGT#tw sui ideation#I FORGOT THIS ONE#sui ideation#idk why the full word isnt written in the autocomplete#im assuming thats how its supposed to b written or something
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Diabolik Lovers More Character Song SKiT Dolce Character Message Cards
EDIT: The cards have all been translated by the wonderful @otomehonyaku ♡〜٩( ˃▿˂ )۶〜♡. You can find the translations for the M bros here, and the S bros here!
Do NOT repost the scans anywhere!
#diabolik lovers#more character song#yui komori#ruki mukami#shuu sakamaki#yuma mukami#laito sakamaki#reiji sakamaki#subaru sakamaki#ayato sakamaki#kou mukami#azusa mukami#kanato sakamaki#mine#ruki x yui#shuu x yui#yuma x yui#im so sorry i don't have the energy to add more tags djdhfh#except my usual wordvomit#been at this for hours b/c my computer runs slower than dr nefario's mobility scooter _(´ω`_)⌒)_#what i wouldn't give to cuddle up to ruki rn im so tired hfjfhfg#so happy my best boys got such nice messages uwu#speaking of which#i've arranged the cards in the order of most to least favorite diaboy#that being said i don't dislike the ones at the bottom or anything#not even the purple gremlin (love to hate the little shit)#anyway gonna shut tf up now lol. i hope you all enjoy!#but again /please/ don't repost any of the scans
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#psychonauts#gristol malik#theodore malik#<-Yeah. Hes there#psychonauts 2 spoiler#nightmaretheater#time on canvas: 8 hours#also YES this is psychonauts fanart. I prommy. Iii prommy. its gristol when he was younger#rips my hair out rips my eyes out#Hi Ugly. Points at him#travel back in time and take him away from his parents Okay#you will get my message#as much as i hate him i feel he must be understood at some level.#im not saying we should excuse or forgive him. No. We need to understand why he turned out like that#(its his parents (he only knows propaganda))#i have so much to say on the topic . i have been consumed by thoughts of him#kind of upsetting how the one guy with a cluster b personality disorder gets No Understanding in the Understanding Mentally Ill People game#<-once again. Not excusing his actions#also yeah sorry i had to unleash the rendering demons oops
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#trying to remember how to draw shot number 100#sorry for being a senior student i dont have time to breathe#i also hate draw profiles ughh#rinne amagi#crazy b#enstars#ensemble stars#sketch#and im also sick wish me well
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I love the Light Grows Up In Wammy's House premises but I also think I love it in a very different way than most people do
Like I don't see it as a Childhood Friends/Rivals™ trope for Lawlight, I very much see it as Light growing up being told that there's someone better than him, someone he must not only surpass, but become—and I think he does the opposite of what BB does. He starts to hate L not because of anything L actually did (because they wouldn't have met) but because everyone keeps implying that L is better than him when Light KNOWS that he's the superior one. Beyond finds out that L is addicted to sweets and immediately changes his diet to include cakes and candies, while Light immediately wipes everything sweet from his mental list of desired foods.
He is perfectly polite, he's the baby of the group, and he can do no wrong in every other aspect of life except for the fact that he vehemently doesn't want to take L's place no matter how hard they push him. He wants to become his own sort of detective on his own merit, and he'll be damned if he has to use L's name while he does it. If he solves any cases it's anonymously, under a pseudonym.
And if he ever meets L, they won't be friends. But that vaguely disconcerting teen/man that sometimes sits in the corners of rooms and talks to no one is very interested in what Light has to say, no matter what it is, and seems to both enjoy it when Light talks shit about L and yet is still somehow annoyed by it. They get into heated arguments and he'll steal Light's things and pull his hair and mess up his clothes no matter how many times the caretakers chastise him for it (though even that happens surprisingly rarely). Light would stop talking to him entirely if he wasn't his only hope of getting out of Wammy's little genius factory both physically and mentally intact.
Light makes plans to run away and runs them by the broody teenager he's tolerated, who helps him pick out any holes in his plans, but somehow the staff always seem to catch Light before he can escape. It happens so often that Light even begins to think that someone's snitching on him, but he's only ever told one other person, and he wouldn't care enough to stop Light from leaving....
Would he?
Or, alternatively, Light never meets that stranger in the corner. Instead, Watari happily sternly informs him that L has personally selected Light to help him on cases. Isn't that great? Isn't it an honor? A and B are practically roiling with jealousy, Light should be grateful.
But Light is not grateful. He takes the news with a big ole fake smile, and silently plots L's mysterious disappearance before he's even come face to face with the man. He wants to make it on his own, he doesn't want to be reliant on L's name and Wammy's money and generosity forever, and he loathes the fact that he's been metaphorically chained to L's title in all the ways he didn't want to be.
A tiny Light, accompanying a teenage L places and becoming his face (both because L is petty and because he thinks its funny when police are introduced to a little kid as their Consulting Detective) around the world, all while they throw vicious barbs back and forth and spend quiet Christmases together and throw each other under the bus for fuckups and try foreign cuisines together and struggle to keep (L)/gain (Light) the power and ground they both don't even actually want.
L gives Light all the cases he doesn't want, like he's doing him a favor, and Light regularly calls A and B to smack talk L behind his back and turn the rest of his successors against him.
I can even imagine some amalgamation of both of these scenarios happening, or even eight more vaguely like them in the vein of L and Light being both completely antagonistic towards each other while also simultaneously growing so codependent that they can't stand not knowing what the other one is doing at any point in the day and also get absurdly jealous whenever anyone else even speaks to them.
Or EVEN a scenario where L doesn't pay attention to Light at all until he's grown and out in the world on his own. Light makes a quick name for himself, decidedly divorced from Wammy's influence, and eventually meets L on accident through a case L is working on, wherein L becomes intrigued with him and looks into his history only to find that he's a Wammy kid and L goes "Oh. You're one of mine."
To which Light takes decidedly poorly given that the claim both riles and razes Things™ in him because growing up with the vaguest desires to be like the man in front of you even though you loathe him and those desires were quickly squashed and never thought of willingly or voiced aloud leaves behind both the intense need to alienate yourself from said man entirely and to get close enough to become better than him for all to see and witness—only for Light to find that he can't alienate himself completely from L anymore because L decidedly won't let him and he can never quite seem to surpass him either because L is constantly nipping at his heels, echoing his thoughts with brilliant deductions of his own, and it turns out that trying to intellectually sprint past someone who only starts running when YOU do and has a distinct headstart is harder than it looks.
#long post#death note au#death note#lawlight#yagami light#l lawliet#i legit cannot picture them purely fluffy im sorry it goes against everything in me to right them and pure and loving partners#theyre awful and theyre perfect for each other#wammys house#beyond birthday#alter#a#a fucking...SEETHES when she finds out that L picked the only one of them who didn't actually want to succeed gim#b is more cynical so he's less surprised but he joins in on a's hate in solidarity#on the inside though he thinks its fucking hilarious#grim rants
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be delusional with me for a second and let’s pretend house didn’t air mid 2000’s. imagine a finale where house takes his vicodin, realizes yet again that he’d rather have wilson in his life more than anything, and they look in each other’s eyes as he carefully leans forward, kisses wilson so softly, and drops the last pill into his mouth. they’re disgusting, disheveled, in pain. wilson smells like sweat and vomit, house is shaking from holding himself together and beginning to detox. but he’s real. he feels real, wilson feels real, a weight in his arms, and he tries to imagine a life without wilson in it. he can’t. so he does what he can, holds wilsons hand as he squeezes with all the pressure he can muster, house whispering “i can’t let you go. i need you. you need me.” as he rests his forehead against wilson’s.
they don’t kiss later. they don’t even hold hands outside of this, and the show ends exactly the same way. but now wilson hears how needed he is, out loud, spoken honestly, and he knows he can die happy as he spends the rest of his time with the love of his life.
#sorry it’s 6am and i need to get out of my warm bed#but i woke up and thought about a gifset someone posted of this scene and about how gay it was#and. yeah my b#house md#gregory house#hate crimes md#james wilson#hilson#forgive me if i remembered something wrong god im tired#also if this is in a fic ignore me LOLL (and tell me which one. pls)
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You sound like my dad, John. My father liked to drink. When he drank, he gambled. I can’t tell you the amount of nights I spent sleeping on benches in Casper’s Parlours and Pony Tracks. Didn’t matter if it was a ball game, horse, dog, game of cards - he’d bet. He’d usually lose.
MASTERS OF THE AIR - PART TWO
#masters of the air#motaedit#john egan#gale cleven#userines#violaobanion#ronsparky#tusermiranda#*#directions here were: heart eyes & babygirlism#sorry but like. am i wrong#i hate how low the text is but im trying to fight photoshop in a parking lot rn so#also these are b&w because im in a mood and the lightning was non existent
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Self proclaimed empaths on their way to "advocate for the mentally ill 🥺" by demonizing every cluster b personality disorder
#you tell them having a personality disorder doesnt inherently make someone more capable of abuse than someone without one#and they go fucking ballisitc! Assflash newshole! everyones capable of harming others! it came free with your being a person!#and oohh they just love flooding the NPD safe tag with as much hate as possible which is! Not normal behavior! What the fuck!#also when i say “self proclaimed empaths” i do NOT mean high empathy ppl! thats completely different!#we have fluctuating empathy so we'll go from completely without out it to overwhelmed by it at random#its just atjglejkwgk agifeli#be nice to people with personality disorders! we're people too! and more often than not we're victims of abuse!#graaah sorry just#got harrassed in a fucking emoji server on discord by some dickwad who noticed i had NPD in my intro like bro? Im here for funny cat emojis#wawawewa#npd#npd safe#cluster b safe#cluster b#empath
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questioning sexuality is so exhausting
#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me)#i keep on doing it for no apparent reason#someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that.#even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women.#i hate it here!#for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man!#at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage#and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk#but at the same time i. want to be loved.#i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself#i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it#and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately#this isn't entirely related but it kind of is#like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it?#i don't know. i don't know!#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know#i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that.#but i don't know how to stop it.#i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all.#this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are#queer stuff tag#i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as#the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing#ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded#also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him#i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know#i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all.#i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever#care for me#now im rambling. sorry
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dam im back again guys i just been taking it east both my laptops r broken the good one and the old shitty onee so i havent been tumblring much . psycosis was the most terriffying experience of my life , and i still cant figure out wat was real and wat wasnt , but the main point is that it doesnt matter and wat matters is just takin care of myself and not letting that happen again . tbh my friends said oh we knew this was coming one day which kinda made me feel bad lol but at the same time like wat do u expect ? u can only get away w that type of sleep deprivation n constnat inebriation and completely ignoring ur mental illness for so long . im doing cbt books now and im refusing to see anything but the love and light in every situation , cause like , u kno j, as they say ,, where we dwell in consciousness is truly where we dwell in life . its just been kinda hard and strange and bad and i feel like i have to like , superstitiously take plan b now wheras before i knew i would be fine . or no i didnt i mean before i would let myself have that as a worry in the back of my mind but now i have to superstitiously take precautaions . i kno that can b its own type of ocd and im doin counciling for that . its all just been really stressful and terrifying .... iwanna tell about the experiecne but i dont wanna like , u kno , spread bullshit around or pay attention to it when its bullshit . some parts were so good and beautiful , but some parts were so terrifying . i really thought i was bein taken to hell , and then i really thought like , i was so convinced i kill:ed myeslf and hurt my mom in that way i promsised myself i would neverr ever hurt her . that wasnt real tho but it felt absolutely so real :((( , i think how many years i would read ghost stories online and that felt like searching for something divine more than bein raised w my lack of god or watever , anyways , yeah im not gunna dwell on everything but basically im doing a lot better , i can tell the full story once im far away from it . ive felt so strongly sometimes like , i wish i could go back , to the world i lived in for the majority of my life where theres nothing that can get me or make me do bad things . and i can , i can i can i can itll just take awhile to get to the mental place where i can plainly see it was all or mostly bullshit / hallucination . brutal summer to be hoenst for tthis gal , oh well , anyways , sending u all all my love . life is scary and life is crazy and its still just all a big mystery , no matter what anyone says , and itll b okay , and i think i'll getta see all the people i love again just in a different way . eternal love , unconditional love , undying love ..... yes those three are the theme of the day...... anyways ok everyone have a lovely evening, its precious beautiful august . summer means so much to me , being where im from , and ive just had to like barely barelyy survive it this year , idk . or i alwayss said Every Single Summer I Feel Like I Was Born Again but this year i really really know wat that feels like , just in the snese of im gunna take my mental problems seriously now , instead of ignore them like my whole entire life . I finally figured out why LIQUOR ALWAYS FELT LIKE MEDICINE..... hahaha ok . all love everybody .
#ok enough crazy talk im sorry for bein all gay and whining about losing my mind on here so much also#haha#also yeah this might b emerging bipolar i hope not tho n i dont think so#I HATE ANTIPSYCOTICS#but i gotta keep it real#ok all love
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yknow. i know I've said before in tags that I don't care about US voters abstaining from the presidential vote as long as they vote for their state/local elections
...after reading that supreme court decision I don't think that any more. if youre a US voter vote for the fucking president please christ I do not want another term of trump because if he wins it might be the last election we ever have
#fuck b!den for many things lol but like#i'd really like for this country to have at least some chance of not turning into a fucking hellscape#not turning into even worse** of a hellscape#junpei.txt#half of the conservative court is old AF. if they die i want them to be replaced by non conservatives. thanks.#genuine possibility for dictatorship! codified into law! this country is a fucking joke#(also fucking. obviously the pro isr/a/el shit sucks but realistically it is the only outcome of any vote right now. as much as i hate that#and if youre a US voter who read that supreme court decision and youre still deciding to abstain from the presidential vote. just. im sorry#you need to unfollow me now. lmfao. you're willing to throw away ANY possible future we might have#i think if trmp wins i might genuinely off myself. and im saying that as a very privileged trans person.
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the boy and the sword
#i made a handwriting font for this. fun fact.#my art#botw#breath of the wild#loz botw#link#link loz#link botw#botw fanart#comics#im not drawing the great deku tree ever again btw. i hate drawing trees. why did i do this.#basically i read that paragraph in creating a champion and i saw this in a vision i tried writing it but sometimes#u have to actually draw things. so here. sorry r v b fans who follow me i cannot stop thinking abt botw/totk link#i need someone to talk to abt it. besides my sister.
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every time i finish a piece i want to fckn drop art... even if i want to draw, this shit is so discouraging for some reason, it's been months and im tired
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found this post in my drafts from april i think? but i still feel it so much, nothing has changed. idk why i keep drawing, just bc i have nothing else to do and i feel guilty to waste all those years i spent learning? idk. lately for some reason every small thing feels like a kick in the gut and i've been contemplating about stopping for a while. and considering health issues every art feels like the last now
I never feel like i belong anywhere, in any fandom i like, in any group that i might be invited to... it makes me feel a bit nicer when someone says that my art cheered them up a bit or sth but it's so temporary :( i miss the days when my art alone made me a bit proud like hell yeah i drew that (which there wasn't much of them either)
before i started posting my art online, i was drawing very rarely and only for myself or that one "friend" who either ignored it or said like cool or sth and changed the topic. I absolutely hated what i do. I spend years to start loving my art, i like what i drew during that "offline" period now, i liked what i did at the time and much of my confidence was coming from online support. And now it's all just gone??? all those years, gone in a few weeks it's so dumb. Idk why i write this or why anyone would read this i'm just so done
gonna push myself and keep goin yet again i guess
#i yet again hate myself more than usual and if before i could be content w my art now the best emotion i can feel is indifference#but usually it's just plain out disgust for whatever reason#i took breaks i tried to do sth different it just makes it worse im just stuck in this dopamine loophole#also i hate to be THAT person but working oh sth for days just for ppl to not see it is bs#tmblr is alright cuz i got more or less followers here and i shouldn't complain (a lot of cool artist don't get noticed at all) but bc of#that i feel guilty before all those ppl who actually like my art...the support is unbelievable (especially on my b-day still makes me cry)#idk i just don't know anymore. i hate to whine on social media and i probably wont post this and i'm sorry#i love looking at my gallery at furaffinity. it looks and feels like it belongs to another person and i like it much more this way
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and I KNOWWWW book 3 is usually everybody's favorite Korra season by, like, a lot but ngl... its the first season to introduce Avatar characters that I just straight up didnt like..
#sorry Opal and Kai. and the other forgettable Beifongs. I uhm. dont HATE you. but you're just.... there.#tlok#this isnt even haterism ok im still tlok's biggest dickrider. that hasn't changed.#but man. Jinora you can do better. I know this. you would make such a wonderful lesbian tween..#you know what .. maybe if Kai is a trans girl... that would turn my opinion around 100%...#it would A) make the smarminess bearable B) make the undercut hot and C) make like.. a fuller character arc.. doesnt have#to be on the run anymore... surrounded by people who care... can finally spend time discovering herself..#I cant start making trans hc about characters I dont even like. how'd we get here.
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what i wouldnt give for feixiao to have black hair.....
#im sorry i think white/gray haired characters are the most boring at best mid type of characters design-wise 😭😭😭#like. jing yuan is cool n all but hed be cooler if he didnt have white hair ajdkflajdkfgk#robin sunday firefly hanya clara topaz bronya silver wolf misha jingliu (i LOVE jl but. cld b better. yk.) etc...#boothill gets a pass bc of the black streak sjfkfkv#(topaz doesnt despite the red bc i hate her Personally♡)#like sorry if u like the white/grey hair on characters i just shrimply think it's overdone 😭😭😭😭#theres nothing in it for me.... black/(dark) brown hair is where it's at imo.... spice it up w a little blue maybe....#this is also why sparkle is the best character of all time btw. if u even care.#ling.txt#hsr
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